Vacation life in a place different from where you live is great. For a time.
You get to set up house. You get to organize a new kitchen. Buy new organiz-y things to help you get everything arranged just so. And then you get to go off on little adventures. You come back, unpack, do some laundry, reorganize, let the kids play, plan the next adventure, repack, and off you go again. Really, it's quite exciting.
And then Reality sets in.
You are not really on vacation.
You actually live here.
The little trips you're taking are getting shorter and further between until they stop altogether because you're not really on vacation. This is your life now. And all you really want is to go home to your real life.
Where your friends are taking their kids to the first day of school and are actually allowed, gasp, inside the actual school building. They don't just have to leave them at a side door of the building with people they have never met before telling them they are not permitted inside for the "safety" of the children.
Where you know that after said first day drop-off, there will be the get together at ________ and meet with other first time kindergarten parents so you can all commiserate with each other about how hard this is on you.
Hanging out at Starbucks after MDO drop off, or maybe meeting for lunch and shopping before picking the kids up from preschool.
There is a Wednesday morning Bible class just full of women after God's own heart that would love to offer a shoulder to cry on, a listening ear, gentle words of encouragement, or even a kind smile to help a sister in need.
A LifeGroup that means so much. Full of men and women and children that share their hearts and lives openly and freely. This is not something to be taken for granted. This is a rare and precious treasure.
I thought I was missing Texas. And I do miss some things. Mexican food. Dr. Pepper. Calico County. And, I miss my house. Oh boy, do I miss my house.
But once peeled away the layers, and got to the actual heart of the matter, that's not what I've been so sad about lately. What I am really longing for.
Why I've been snappy with my kids, haven't been terribly motivated, didn't send out Christmas cards, haven't blogged in a while, haven't gotten to the gym. All kinds of normal activities for me have just kind of slowed down, or just stopped.
I miss my friends. A lot.